INSANITY

So I have entered the crazy zone. And I am the LEADER!! So lets talk about the responsibilities of being the leader. You must first abide by the sacred rule that repeating the same behavior will bring about a different outcome. This is my life philosphy. It is working for me.
Any by working for me I mean keeping going on and on.. Because the outcome hasn't changed.. So on and on we go.. marching into the bright blue yonder!

DONE!!!

So... the no contact with "the boy" lasted very few days. And it seems everytime I make contact with him I regret doing it. So now he has decided that he can't be friends with me because I have pictures of male genitalia on my phone. Now I just don't understand why as a friend he should care about this. But I mean seriously what is the deal. Because I am done.. Once again until I can't take it anymore and give him another call. I am so sad.. So weak... And I hate that about myself. I want to be the woman who can say DONE! and move on. That should be my new years resolution. Any advice would be greatly appreciated! HELP!!!

The Adventures of Single Girls!

Well last night was good. Went out with my ladies. Had good drinks, good laughs, and a good time.

The evening started off a little rough at dinner. Allison, Scott, Jeff, Catherine and myself met for dinner. It was all good until we started talking about the recent drinking and driving accident that involved a 16 year old girl killing a 29 year old. Now I am the first to rant against drinking and driving. BUT I also believe that she is too young to be charged as an adult. The legal drinking age is 21.. Which is the government saying that they believe at that age you are responsible enough to take what comes along with drinking. I just don't understand what will be accomplished by trying this girl as an adult. She has already ruined her life and will be struggling with this everyday of the rest of her life. So I suppose my main point is that I don't believe 16 year olds have the same mentality as adults and therefore don't agree with trying them that way.

MR. DARCY!

Oh the joys of mypsace! Well today was a decently good day.. It was absolutely beautiful and I made every attempt to be outside. Came home from working out to see that the "boy" mentioned earlier has deleted me from his myspace page. Could this be out of revenge or purely because he is 2. Well to see what exactly was going on I went to his myspace and found out that not only did he delete me, but also a friend of mine of which he had added. Now here is my deal. It is one thing to delete me, but to delete my friend out of association is a whole other. This is one thing I have never understood. I understand where you can have distaste towards some people but to have distaste towards someone not in the situation is a complete uncalled for. Now I have experienced this by a guy who dated my friend. Once it ended he wouldn't even acknowledge me. Which I found completely immature. So those are my issues with boys today! But I watched Pride and Prejudice, and it always gives me hope that one day I will meet someone like Mr. Darcy!

ONESIDED FREAKS!!

You enjoy feeling needed, dear Virgo, but today even you may throw up your hands and shout, "Enough already!" You have been giving so much of yourself for so long now that friends and loved ones tend to think of your largesse as a right rather than a privilege. Today you can remind them of the error of their thinking. Take a day off from indentured servitude for a change. Take yourself out to a fancy restaurant in town and enjoy being waited on. Don't forget to leave a generous tip.

So this was my horoscope for the day! And oh does it speak volumes!! So I didn't write yesterday because I was completely exhausted.. Got home from work and took a short nap, worked out and went and hit the town! Now I have been rejected by so many boys this month that I have sworn them off! Yes I know it is only the 5th of Jan. but you have no idea. So last night was just me and Allison and we went to Sharkeys to shoot pool! Now I have learned that an older crowd hangs out there.

So we began shooting pool when a guy approached us and asked if we were easily offended. (I however am not in any measure easily offended) So I said no and he proceeded to show me pictures of his penis that he was taken on his phone! This however didn't shock me, but makes me realize that these are the kind of guys I attract. Which is why I am still single.

So now for the reason my horoscope rings true. So the infamous boy mentioned earlier that just wants to be friends is the prime example. Now I know we aren't supposed to keep track of things as friends but everyone has been in one of those relationships where you begin to notice that you are the one being a friend and the other person is reaping the benefits. Well this is so true with the friendship.. Because it is completely one sided. I can't think of one thing he has done for me. The few times I have needed his help he is nowhere to be found- oh so convenient. I am a very giving person and love it. But when you begin to notice that someone is taking advantage of your generosity it is time to draw the line. So this is me DRAWING the line. We will see how long it last!

Just another FRIEND!!

Well I have decided to start blogging because I just need to vent and I figured this is the best way. So here is the story. I met this guy about 4 months ago. Now between you and me, we met on the computer. After a few witty e-mails and some online conversation we decided to talk on the phone. The conversation was great. After a couple of days and finding out that we lived down the road from each other we decided to meet. The meeting was good and he stayed for hours. This went on a couple of times until he mention some girl that he apparently had feelings for. Well that didn't work out... but as always there was another girl. Now for 3 months I have had to listen to this guy talk about girl after girl. The whole time thinking "WHY NOT ME!!" Well now he has decided to find me a boyfriend. I don't know exactly what this means. He describes me as: nice, funny, low-maintenance, laid back, and a good cook. So my question is why won't he date me! Am I out of line thinking that one day he will turn around and say YOU ARE THE ONE!! When we first started hanging out he told me to "make the effort", now for 4 months I have done nothing but show the effort. And yet all it has got me was a new friend. Now I am not complaining because I will take a friend, but for once I want more